Beautiful, inside and out

Parenting has by far been the most rewarding, most insanity inducing experience I could have ever hoped for.  I question my ability daily.  And with the world pulling in one direction and me pulling in the other, I imagine being a child is rather difficult too.  I often forget to think about Emma’s side of things, to take her personality and short life experience into consideration.  I just want to do “it” “right.”  Whatever that means.  I’ve been reminded recently that I need to spend less time reading parenting books and fretting (although I do find many parenting books quite helpful) and more time on my knees praying.  As much control as I think I have or want to have it just isn’t so.  And the only way to impart wisdom and truth to my child is to be soaked in it myself.  Oh, my dear sweet girls.  I hope that they are able to become “healthy” adults despite my shortcomings.



My adorable puppy made it on one of the funniest websites ever.
Here’s her picture.

Family of four

Our friend Ben will not admit to his great talents. He is a gifted photographer and just one of the nicest, funniest guys you’ll ever meet. He took this picture for us and I adore it.

I look at it and I still have to pinch myself sometimes. It seems that this baby thing is really happening.  After all these years, after the loss and disappointment, it hardly seems possible.  And yet here we are.  It’s amazing and surreal and I’m taking it in with gratitude one day at time.


Thanks Ben- you will always be awesome in my book.

Sympathy Weight

Emma’s gaining “sympathy weight.”


What do you think, boy or girl?


It’s a, it’s a…


Makes sense, giving birth to animals runs in the family.  I’m pretty sure Portia thinks I birthed her.

Thur. March 27th, 2008: NJ/CA

Our last day in NJ was a day of lounging and packing.  The rain held out until Thursday.  It was nice to relax and rush off to the airport.  I really love my cousin and his family.  I wish I was able to visit with them more, but I am so thankful that we both make an effort to see each other about once a year.  That’s pretty good since I can’t remember when I last saw any of my other cousins- at least 5 years ago.

Emma and her cousins Tyler (the tall one), Miles, and Antonia… Tyler was 3 when he was the ring bearer for our wedding.

Emma and NJ cousins

Wed. March 26, 2008: NY/NJ

Emma’s first Broadway show; Mama Mia. Quite a fun experience. Okay show. Emma LOVED all the music and theatrics. It was a refined day. We started with a visit to MOMA (museum of modern art). Emma received a listening tour and really absorbed a lot of the information. She really seems to have an appreciation for art. Being a “modern” art museum there were some pieces that I didn’t care for but wondered about Emma’s reaction. We approached a painting that was a canvas painted white. That’s all, just white. I asked Emma what she thought about this particular piece. She responded, “It’s some kind of masterpiece.” She didn’t know what kind but it’s hanging in this museum, so it must be. Right?

After the museum we walked to a fun restaurant called “Europa” and then proceeded to the Winter Garden theater on Broadway. Emma was enraptured with all of it. The fanfare, the lights the music, the dancing. It wasn’t my favorite show, and it was a bit mature for a 6 year old, but it was so wonderful to watch her experience it all. I enjoyed that the most.

That evening John and Jess had their babysitter come over and the four of us went to a nice dinner. John and Jessica and wonderful, gracious and kind people. But they are also incredibly smart. Over dinner we talked economics and education. They’re both MIT grads. They have a lighter side too, it was a so nice to have a “grown up” night.

After dinner I began to think about the next day. We were heading back to Cali. Sigh. Such a nice visit, I am

going to miss them. I wish they lived closer.



Off to New Joysy!  Yippie.

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